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(I am struggling to deal with this dialogue)
- Big Little Lies, S02E05
I can relate to both characters, especially through the highlighted sentences.
* I would change woman to man, more appropriate to the context when I experienced something similar
** Not Nathan, obviously, just someone who should not be named now
And the highlighted sentence in blue = life goals.
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(I am struggling to deal with this dialogue)
ED
But then you got unsound. You decided to make impractical choices, one being to fuck Joseph Bachman, which left me with the most difficult choice of all: to walk out with my dignity or to stay with a woman * who I can simply do not trust.
MADELINE
You can trust me to love you. More deeply than I've ever loved anybody. Can you trust me not to fuck things up again? Maybe not. I don't know if I can trust myself with that. I didn't trust my parents' marriage and the one I had with Nathan** was not to be believed. And I don't know what it is. Maybe it's some unconcious preemptive thing where I wanna be the destroyer, not the destroyee. I don't understand, and I rack my brain about it but I... 'Cause all I really want is to be married to you, Just... happily married to you. But I must have low self-esteem or I fucking hate myself or something because look what I've done. If I fuck up again, it will be not with infidelity. I give you my word. All my future mistakes will be brand new ones.
- Big Little Lies, S02E05
I can relate to both characters, especially through the highlighted sentences.
* I would change woman to man, more appropriate to the context when I experienced something similar
** Not Nathan, obviously, just someone who should not be named now
And the highlighted sentence in blue = life goals.
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