ARAR

CARMY

You know, the chaos, it is not helpful, Marcus.

MARCUS

It means a lot coming from you.

I don't know. She said this one thing in the movie that, like, really stuck with me. Subtitled, but essentially, she says, "We let anxiety set limits on emotion, on feelings, on grief. And we trick ourselves into thinking there's limits because of fear."

- Marcus, The Bear, S05E04

I've been there, Carmy.

The Bear, S05E03

I, sometime living, sometime with a name

- Yvor Winters

The rain of matter upon sense

Destroys me momently.

- Yvor Winters

The frightened brain, the nervous will,

The knowledge of what must be done,

The passion to acquire the skill

To face that which you dare not shun.

- Yvor Winters

A disturbance in mirrors

- Sylvia Plath

Cai a lua, caem as plêiades e

É meia-noite, o tempo passa e

Eu só, aqui deitada, desejante.

- Safo

and the only thing worse

than losing the trust

of a lover is finding the rust

in their kiss

- kae tempest

TIRESIAS

You long for knowledge;

you will soon long for ignorance.

- Euripides, The Phoenician Women

Querido diário,

Hoje me lembrei de que, na Nekyia de Homero, Odisseu desce ao mundo dos mortos em busca de Tirésias, mas encontra também a memória: para descobrir o caminho de volta, precisa antes ouvir as vozes do passado.

Ontem assisti a Backrooms (2026), que parece caminhar por esse mesmo território. Hoje, no terceiro episódio de Proud (2026-), encontrei o poema Hold Your Own, de Kae Tempest, e descobri que ele dá nome ao livro em que Tempest recria justamente o mito de Tirésias — personagem que admiro desde Tiresia (2003).

Gosto quando essas constelações se formam sem aviso. Hoje, no Dia Internacional do Orgulho LGBTQIAPN+, todas essas vozes pareceram encontrar umas às outras.

- AR

Happiness, the brand, is not happiness

- Kae Tempest

When all there is is knowing that you feel

what you are feeling

Hold your own

- Kae Tempest

When everything is fluid

nothing can be known with any certainty

Hold your own

- Kae Tempest